• Tara Simone

How Love Yourself While Wanting To Change Your Body + "Did you gain weight?" Story

After struggling with emotional eating for years I found one tip that changed everything for me! By focusing on loving my body I was finally able to lose weight, overcome emotional eating, and feel free from food! Read it all here!

"Did you gain weight?"

That question stunned me so much that my mind immediately started racing and I can't even remember with those were the exact words asked to me..all I can remember from this brief conversation this past weekend is that someone thought I looked bigger, less healthy, and been eating too much...at least that is how my mind interpreted it. 

It felt like I was thrown back in time to standing in my childhood kitchen hearing my father say "Don't go for seconds. You don't want to be a fat teenager."

While neither of these statement spoken to me by people who love me was meant to hurt it, they did. 

One contributed to two eating disorders I survived during my high school years and the other led to this blog. 

For the past two years I have been preaching self love over own my Instagram, but still struggle daily with it. I allowed that struggle to make me feel like an imposter..like a fraud...like I wasn't even good enough to speak on this topic because it has been such a battle in own life.

I hesitated even writing this blog or sharing the struggle on Instagram for those reasons, but then I remember what I tell all my coaches who are just starting their businesses "you don't have to be great to start...but you have to start to be great!" 

This weekend when I got asked "did you gain weight?" I had to coach myself.

In that moment I went into defense mode and came up with the quickest response to get out of the conversation. "Oh maybe! I was just cleared to lift weights again after all my scoliosis issues so I have been bulking up." While that may be partly true considering I just started a new weight lifting program, my intention behind saying it was to find an excuse for my apparently bigger body so that the other person didn't think I was gaining weight unintentionally.

I let my fear talk in that moment. If I could go back, I would educate the other person on how triggering that question, or any comment on weight, can be for people and you never know how has gone through an eating disorder. I would share my personal struggle with orthorexia and binge eating disorder. I would share how I beat both, but still struggle with body image, emotional eating, and positive mindset. I would practice what I preach and use every moment on this earth to spread love.